Não faças barulho! Apróxima-te de mim e ouve o que tenho para te dizer... São fragmentos de uma vida, de um ser humano, por vezes com rumo, por vezes perdido...

terça-feira, fevereiro 17, 2015

Almost one year later

My guy, my stranger...

I fell so bad for him, I am so in love with him.

I love him for a while now...

but,

is it that we cannot be loved as we expect to be?

is love a such subjective matter as beauty?

Baby of mine,

I need to feel protected

I need to feel loved

I need to feel safe

I am not even half as strong as people think I am

I am just good in not letting others see my feelings.

Are you willing to take me by the hand, to accept my moods, to love me even in my darkest times?


quarta-feira, junho 04, 2014

More words for what...


sábado, maio 24, 2014

Lovely weekends...

That's what the date has turned into. 4 beautiful days toogether now.

I have realised we have real differences, in the way we want to live our lives. I want to continue seeing him, but, is it worth?

He does not want any kids, will he ever change he's mind?
He did not come to see me when I really needed just because in his mental discipline, he cannot understand that we all react differently. And he was doing his sports...
He will travel for 1 year in a couple of months.

I guess I should just stop it.

But still I will see him today. 

terça-feira, maio 13, 2014

Date


What is in the end this weird event that sometimes gets us so excited, that has the ability to get us up in the clouds and down into the sewages...?

According to the dictionary date is:

noun
noun: date; plural noun: dates
  1. 1.
the day of the month or year as specified by a number.
"what's the date today?"
synonyms:
day, day of the month, occasion, year, anniversary, time More
"the only dates he can remember are his birthday and 1066"
o   a particular day or year when a given event occurred or will occur.
"1066 is the most famous date in English history"
o   the years of a particular person's birth and death or of the beginning and end of a particular period or event.
o   the period of time to which an artefact or structure belongs.
"the church is the largest of its date"
synonyms:
"a later date than the 15th century is suggested for this bridge"
  1. 2.
a social or romantic appointment or engagement.
"I've got a hot date"
synonyms:

Man is a social animal meaning that, by nature, we will tend not to live in isolation. This is how, most of us, are brought up surrounded by people that love us. In fact, even Mogli was not living in isolation and the hermits, I believe, are the exception that confirms the rule.

In our days, both man and women are taught that the correct way of life is to study, find a job, be successful professionally, fall in love, marry have kids and live happier ever after. This how most of the kids’ fairy tales end - but is it life really like that? Are we all able to find our "prince our princess charming"? Does every human being get to live happily ever after? Or else to, at least, find their happy ending? Isn't society demanding too much from each one of us as individuals?

I'll just speak for my self. I have been brought up the traditional good way. Studying was not even a question, as my mom used to say, her job was to go to the office every day and my siblings, as well as mine was to go to school. All the fairy tales I have been read had the live happy ever after.

Even if I was not very keen to believe in it as I saw so many not good relationships as a child, I bought the idea on the simple and common mistaken argument that something like what I saw was not going to happen to me.

So I studied, I found a job, meanwhile I fell in love a couple of times and had relationships... none of them with that "happy ever after" miracle that I no longer believe to exist. I have made my choices, seeing that relationships were not at all simple; I've focused on my professional objective. As I was becoming better in my job, this was freezing my personal life. Time for finding someone was short, and the patience little. One of the arguments my longest ex gave me when we broke up after 4.5 years was have that I was working too much and studying to much while doing my Master degree and he didn't get to see me enough. Although this is not exactly why we broke up, truth is said, he was right.

Life kept running, and the years went by at the speed of light. I'm now on my 30ish and I guess I'm what people normally call a successful person, but let me tell you... all this for sure makes my life comfortable, but does it actually make it happier? I have my doubts. I severely doubt when after a dog day at work I get back home to find no one waiting for me, when I feel like doing something romantic and don't really have a guy to do it, when I want to plan holidays and have no one to do it with, when I'm not invited to many of my married/couple friends dinners or parties just because they believe that I will get bored as our lives have become different and specially with the kids around. Actually I don't know why, but I think that most couples unconsciously tend to exclude single people from their circles...

Anyways lets get back to the "date" subject. I have never really had a date in my life until a couple of days ago, this by taking it as a "social or romantic appointment". Actually all the dates I had before were only dATES, meaning that the person with which they have been was already someone I somewhat knew – when in the movies it happens with people who don’t really know.

Not long ago though, I met this guy in an airplane "such a cliché" we spoke and sort of got along well with each other. A couple of weeks after I got back home he starts emailing me and by a matter of destiny we were only able to arrange a date a couple of days ago. I am not experienced in dates, but I must tell that all went super nice. He was polite, well dressed, and able to keep up the conversation in a huge variety of themes, intelligent, funny and smiley.

I guess I kind of liked it; and even if I don’t know if it will end up in something more or no  - as it is as you guess to early – I got to know someone interesting and funny who was able to make me smile and this is a plus.

quinta-feira, maio 01, 2014


quarta-feira, abril 30, 2014

In love with tis song...


Don't really think a man is the solution for everything, not desperate or in sales picking up whatever is easier or whatever comes. The years go by quite fast, and I'm no longer in the mood to play games. Actually, I have never been a player... don't really see any use in it.

I'm just a girl, a woman, who is tired of being lonely. I had a short term relationship not long ago.

Why did I broke up?

Because, if you're with someone with who you cannot imagine being in the long term or don't love enough, your not being fair and you are wasting 2 people time. And in the end you will even feel more lonely.

terça-feira, abril 29, 2014

So long ago... When I was so young... it was always Spring whatever the season was. Life was ok, love was easy and friends were plenty and good. We all had time for each other as well as for each one of us. And all that was difficult was in the majority of the cases only temporary...